This time last week, the cancellations in my diary started for my pop up gift shop events. I work mainly in care homes and retirement complexes and with Coronavirus becoming a real issue, these environments have quite rightly closed their doors to external visitors. So my business has pretty much been cancelled for the foreseeable future. This happening so soon after losing my gorgeous elderly cat just days before, was a bit too much to absorb.
Anyway, fast forward a week and we’re living in a whole new world. Everybody that can work from home are, Coronavirus is now a pandemic, people are panic buying, the shops have run out of loo rolls, and we daren’t go and visit our parents for risk of unknowingly passing it on to them if we’re already infected.
I’m scared. Scared for having no income for potentially months. Scared for my husband’s business surviving this pandemic. Scared for my family’s health. Scared for my friends health. Scared that we might not survive financially. Just so scared! I’ve been having the odd panic attack, mainly as I’m drifting off to sleep when it starts to creep up on me.
What is going to happen? Trying to be positive for our Bear Cub who is only 5. He has some sensory issues so routine is a big thing for him. How will he feel if school closes suddenly?
Having had some health issues with a connective tissue disorder, I’m scared that my immune system could struggle if I get Coronavirus. So now I’m staying home and only venturing out to pick up the Bear Cub from school.
Just scared! Trying to breathe. Trying to eat healthily. Trying to stay calm.
Stay safe everybody xx
Mummy to my Bear Cub 